Number 20

Change a bad habit...

This one was hard because I don't have any bad habits...i'm kidding.

I actually thought about this one awhile. I mean I knew I could do like no soft drinks or eating healthy or biting finger nails but those don't really affect my life. I decided to go with something a little bigger.

Stop gossiping...

Before I even begin to start, let me say that I am not sure it is possible to not gossip at all. My goal was to just cut back considerably.

I didn't want to tell anyone about it when I decided this is what I was going to do. I was going to see if it was something that maybe people could pick up on.

Sooo it began, and it was hard, especially with my best friends.

You don't even realize how much you talk about people until you're trying to make a conscious effort not to. (Look, I know how bad that sounds but i'm just trying to keep it real). It is not always in a bad way just random little things. It's hard to just not say anything back when somebody makes a comment.

There is no way I can show any proof of improvement but feel free to test me. Come up to me and just be like "James, did you know blah blah blah" Hopefully, I'll smile and nod and try to steer the conversation away.

Feel free to ask my friend Marie, she is probably the one who could be some form of testimonial (at least I hope). There have been multiple times where I'll start saying something and then pull a "Oh, nevermind" and then she'll catch on.

I actual feel really good about this one. This is something that will definitely change me for the better in the long run and I plan to keep this up. I don't think there is ever a time that I'll be able to say that this habit is completely changed because I think I'll have to make an effort on it everyday. It is something that will hopefully allow me to mature and allow me to become a bigger person.

Another little added bad habit I feel I am breaking is that I usually never finish anything I start. This blog may actually be an exception! There is a finish line in sight and I really think it's going to happen, I really think I can finish it!

Sooo exciting.

Sorry this was kind of a vague entry but it is more personal and something that I feel is seen better in person than something I can write about.

Number 20 is done(ish)...and by -ish I mean i'm going to continue working on it everyday!